Ready?

In my last post I emphasized how much I was READY for this baby to be out of me. I was thinking about how I can't sleep well anymore, how I'm peeing every 10 minutes, can't walk comfortably, have swollen feet and hands, and just am generally not comfortable. I didn't really dwell on the thought of actually having a newborn. A human that Andrew and I are totally responsible for keeping alive, happy, and healthy. I was reading a few articles yesterday on the postpartum time, 24 hours to a week after baby is born; and honestly, I got a little freaked out. There is so much I don't know, so much I haven't educated myself enough on, so much I have probably been extremely naive about. I had a brief moment of OMGTHEREISNOWAYICANDOTHIS panic when my co-worker said "you better text me if you go into labor this weekend!" as I was leaving for the day yesterday. I replied quickly back to her "I am NOT going into labor this weekend!!", and while I probably wont, it still scared the crap out of me to hear that and realize that it's a possibility that it COULD happen.
Don't get me wrong, I still cannot wait to hold my girl in my arms, smell her sweet little baby smell, kiss her cheeks, count her toes, touch her lips, and most of all love her and be her mama. It's just a little scary. I know Andrew and I will figure it out, and ultimately by the grace of God be pretty decent parents to our girl. True to my worrying nature, I'm sitting here feeling her move, holding my belly, and  sweetly asking her to give mom and dad at least a couple more weeks to get prepared. Mentally.
I guess you could say that my attitude has changed since Wednesday. I'm feeling pretty content right now with Ruby being tucked away safely in my body where I know how to take care of her.

Thanks for listening to my first pre-parenthood freak out moment since I first saw that little plus sign on the pregnancy test. Y'all are the best.

I feel better now. :)

Week 36

I think I've hit the point in pregnancy where I'm SO close to meeting my baby and SO ready (mostly just physically...not so much mentally) that every day just seems to drag by SO very slow. I'm pretty much uncomfortable at all times, and feel about as huge as a house. I'm pretty sure Ruby struggles to get comfortable at times also. There are times where she'll move around back and forth like she's trying to find a position that feels good to her. Her elbows, heels, knees, and feet are my least favorite body parts to feel...they are sharp! Even though her moves hurt me at times, I still cherish getting to feel every move she makes and I'm sure I'll be a little sad when I don't get to feel her inside of me anymore.

The nursery is coming together! All that's lacking now are some curtains (I think I finally found the ones I want), bedding, and hanging up all of the decorations. I can't wait to finish and show you. It's adorable and I'm going to love bringing her home to her sweet little space made just for her.

At a little over 1 week away from being full term, Ruby could get here any day and I really cannot wait. Developmentally, she's ready! At this point she's just packing on the pounds with extra chub (the better for mama to squeeze and kiss!). I can't wait to see her face, cuddle her close, and kiss her sweet cheeks. We'll go to see my doctor the middle of next week and she'll check me for the first time to see what Ruby's position is and if she's getting close to making an appearance.

Here's a picture from earlier this week. She and I are getting bigger by the day!

Here's to spicy food, lots of walking, and trying to convince my child to come visit mom and dad a little early.

Much love. 

Sometimes...

Sometimes when you're organizing your baby's clothes in her new dresser you get the idea to dress your puppy in a pair of her footed pajamas.
You might try and talk yourself out of it, because it sounds a little ridiculous.
But then you can't talk yourself out of it, because it also sounds way too cute.
So, you give into the idea, and dress your puppy in pink 0-3 month footed pajamas.

And it ends up being the best idea you've had in a long, long time.

Sometimes you've got to listen to those crazy ideas.

Insta-Friday

After not being able to use my computer for a little over a week because a sweet little mischievous puppy named Banjo decided to chew my computer charger in half, I'm baaaaack! 

Time is flying by! We're down to 5 weeks til Ruby, and every day I am growing more and more ready to have her in my arms. We have our shower here next weekend, and I plan on going into full blown nesting mode afterwards to get ready for her. I cannot wait. I'm feeling really big, a little bit like my belly is stretched to capacity (I realize it's not). Getting up and down isn't as easy anymore, and I'm getting tired quickly during the day at work. Ruby is active as ever, rolling, turning, and kicking when she can find the space. My doc says she's still on the small side of normal. I would be completely content if she decides to remain that way considering she has to come out of me one way or another. I know of 2 people who were due around the same time as me that have had their babies this week. It has made it so real for me that she'll be here soon. I can't wait to see my sweet girl. 

Here's my contribution to insta-friday (saturday edition). Basically a bunch of pictures of Banjo being lazy and adorable. Enjoy. 

34 weeks. Banjo continues to be bored with taking pictures with me. His face cracks me up.  Can you believe how much he has grown in a month?? 

Sweet Banjo cuddles 

Mid-morning snack at work. I pretty much eat all day long these days. 

He's so cute. Seriously can't get enough of that face.  

My doctor's office. Lots and lots of babies. 

Out cold.

Out cold x2. At Andrew's softball game. 

Garage sale finds for Ruby girl. 

Some adorable decorations we made for Ruby's room.  

"Hey girl...can I get yo numba?"

This next week should be fun! Andrew's mom and aunt are coming in town for our shower on Thursday. We're excited to have them in town! Hope y'all have a wonderful week!